Hello everyone, I have to say the title on this post fits me way too well right now. You see I am married but I feel like I'm single most of the time. I work part time, study whenever I can catch a minute, keep up my household cleaning and bills. I also care for our 3 year old son about 95 percent of the time. My son was born with a visual impairment he inherited from me and he had fluid in his ears the first six months so he had to wear hearing aids for a while. Between the two of us we have doctor appointments nearly every other week. Before my son turned three and was able to go to early childhood services, we had four different teachers that came to our home to work with him. Because I was the one handling all doctor appointments and teachers, I had no choice but to go part time to care for him. I have an extremely stressfull job with the government and I would have had nervouse breakdown otherwise.
I used to try to deligate some responsibility to my husband, but he was so irresponsible that whatever small yet important task I'd give him he wouldn't do. He has taken my son out without a jacket in 20 degree weather, he overdosed my son with benedryle, he didnt feed him for a whole day when he was home with him once, he has gone two or three days without giving him anything to drink during the dead of summer, he even left him in the car and whent into a store without him (which I didn't find out about until much later), and when I'd let him take my son to the doctor he couldn't tell me one thing doctor would say. I gave up after a while and have just been doing everything myself. And considering I'm legally blind and can't drive us places like the doctor or grociery store, I have to depend on alternate transportaion.
Another thing is I think my husband has ADD because you literally have to repeat things to him 15-20 times before he gets even half of what you're telling him. I have prayed and prayed and prayed that God would just help him realize he is not behaving like a father or husband. I have tried to teach him to listen to me. I have begged him to listen to me. I have taken him to therapist to find out why he doesnt listen to me. But I have found no solution. At this point I'm not so sure I want to be married to someone that doesnt want to help me at all. I moved out of our master bedroom the other night. A small part of me still wants to keep the relationship, but my sanity is quickly going.
Does anyone have any advice for me?